There is never a time when I can actually blog properly.
Where I live, I’m constantly surrounded by chatter and distracting noises — my parents talking, the news broadcaster yapping away, the people living upstairs running around and causing a ruckus. Honestly, it is all I can do sometimes to not scream at the top of my lungs to tell everything to give me just one minute of peace and quiet.
I can’t think with the noise. I can’t think right now either — I was writing another blog post, but no matter how I phrased things, nothing sounded right. The only reason I can write this right now is probably because this is the only topic that has a strong enough grasp on my mind… Not a good thing, of course, since it’s likely raising my stress levels.
Let’s just hope my ideas, ability to write, and some quiet time rendezvous soon. I didn’t start this blog just to have it wither away into digital dust.
and then i stopped.
keeping up a website was too much work, especially since i had been using post2host services. and as i dropped out of the realm of blogging, i also fell out from messenger, facebook, and all of internet life in general.
so i lived three or four years as a shadow on the world wide web. caught in the sticky threads, but somehow able to slip between them and escape notice at the same time.
one day, as i was slipping between the dot coms and living networks called facebook and lifehacker, i realized that it was no fun living like a ghost in a place as alive and jumping as the internet. it’s called a network for a reason. it exists for us to thrive in. to touch the lives of others.
today, i spent the entire day, not studying for my driver’s license, not studying korean, but looking for a webhost and setting up a blog.
and now, i blog again.
(or at least, i hope to take up my calling once more.)